my letters

this blog is for interviewing, schizophrenicly. starts down there somewhere
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i'm not guru or drug user to write these texts, i'm schizophrenic. schizophrenia is gift in european india, or they are
holy. in middle ages they were after schiphrenic until(?) carmelites(i'm not sure) protected schizophrenic because 2 of
them were schizophrenic (and i think that those times were not known mental diseaces, makes it strange.) and later they
were told to be holy. i told european india that none of you mix that land and people as american india.

you can write messages down there, it would be nice.

-(for me/minulle) number here, numero tähän, release upper, julkaise ylemmät, start reading/writing from here



normally you want to be in next life certain kind, but when you born there, you dont agree with last lifes opinion
i think you should be realistic, some people cheat with this information. and if they get caught in next life, they are
really angry. i mean, you don't absolutely want to be gay example, and you realize you have to lie, how do you lie?

in some games, if you get trough the game, you wake up.

why do we not remember all the things
its because some one do not want to, its like their secret, i do not know are they shy or mean

now, i don't know for how long, but people have 7 +5 chakra, like atlantics had.

at winter raindeers eat fly agaric and fly at the sky, but where is the santaclaus? fly agaric also grow at winter.

relation between future and past is not same, both can change, and i do not, or don't remember been in relation with my
future. some one in me says i forget, i mean i do not have schizophrenia any longer if i'm in relation with my future.

i'm creating my own code language, not working, just has to be logic, and after awhile, or immediately, i can control my
schizophrenic world, i heard them and me talkingn about code language before, but did not realize i can make my own one.

i have had my own letters that ive been doing since i was little boy, not untill now i understand how it works, they say
that bock ior invented how it works, because someone told him and wanted some help from he, it is like this:
ho=breath out
tu=breath in
its between your throat and mouth, there is also ki, i do not yet want to release it, perhaps because i do not completely
understand it. and thats all i can tell, i do not want to release anything else about it, yet.
okay, also:
ki=drink
i just found out that finnish word ki-i-ho-tu is good word for these, but don't think it has nothing to do with my
words, word means get exited, like gentle command that get exited.
yea, and these have nothing to do with bock ior letters, it's because he is good with word things, so my voices asked
some help from him, and i have not never been seen him, and anyway, he is dead now. dont know how he helped me, perhaps
i get contact with his fiktive version, and voices say no one has never been there, i mean here, inside me, than they, no
outsider, and they have also real humans out there, who those fictive are. and also word:
tu-ho
that word i have been realized more than 20 years, it means, destruction.
and there is also word:
li-ru
which means pee. in some day i made up my own word, it is:
ru-li
which can have something to do, it can be translated as , to ru-le.

its strange, i want to remember things i dont know why, i had an idea that i want to know because someone inside me wants
to.