get contact

 in english down there somewhere
you can write messages down there, it would be nice.

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mun toinen blogi (finnish):
skitsofreeni.blogspot.com

i'm not guru or drug user to write these texts, i'm schizophrenic. schizophrenia is gift in european india, or they are
holy. in middle ages they were after schiphrenic until(?) carmelites(i'm not sure) protected schizophrenic because 2 of
them were schizophrenic (and i think that those times were not known mental diseaces, makes it strange.) and later they
were told to be holy. i told european india that none of you mix that land and people as american india.

(mulle, to me) merkkaa tämän alapuolelle numero, ota tämä ylemmät silti mukaan julkaistavaksi: aloita kirjoittaminen
muöhemmin tästä. kopioi & liitä silti ylhäältä.

while ago, i readed about insane/mad scientist, as i found it in gnostic site, i interviewed or wrote about him, perhaps
i can write about him again, don't know when. actually there was round quicsilver ball, he was quite poor, he escaped
insane/mad scientist some sort of locked glass thing, and actually in those were brains, he was hidden, he gave self to me
but ofcourse i could not take him, on reality i mean, there i was hidden from that insane/mad scientist and wrote about
what happened there. actually i turned that name from finland to england, elohopea, there was what it ment in english
it was, lively thing or person.

actually all magic books are individual, no one else cannot do magic that is written by someone else, it does not work.
so i cannot write about it, if i have any, i can only show you way how to be in contact.

now i know how to speak with those voices, i speak slowly, and use earphones without music, or i don't know can you
use music, i noticed it while i was doing something without music, i did something in my mouth, and it sounded with more
volyme in my head.

Mp3, get contact, version Schizophrenic Anzih (this way is my version, imagined in state of my schizophrenia)

At beginning Two ways, just try which one feels better for you.

Way 1 = Feel number 1, think yourself./ way 2 = feel yourself, think number 1. (think = create thought of.) silence your head of daily bullshit thoughts. Imagine yourself sleeping, remember your memories. If you get bad memories, dont speak(inside of your self) stay at place(dont move) (inside of yourself, sometimes this means don't move your body either), you can whisper inside of your self what/who you want to be in contact with(name of person/sound of that machine you hear) you can hear contacting (inner and outer sounds top of each other.) with sound of that machine (sound example washing machine produces), or speaking voice of being (sometimes i hear voices of beings outside of my head) dont whisper what somebody is speaking, just listen(hear) inside and answer/ask. (this means if you got contact with some being) You can put headphones on, without music (sometimes it is better sometimes not. But i hear all the time so it does not matter what do i do. It changes voices mood.) problem is, how to get away from/rid of these voices, in the beginning of my schizophrenia, they killed them selves to get away (which one i do not know nothing about so i do not recommend), after they used some words to get away, perhaps i also have somekind of words to get my voices away, i just do not remember/know what it is, and i do not know how to get new one. But voices said it's too late because i'm allready out of trip, somesort of stayed on/eternal trip, is this what eternal trip is about, hear voices and you are out of trip? . Sometimes i see things in reality, that has something to do with my life, in advertisement or texts I read, so i think do i live on reality, but this feels reality, so i think this is, at beginning i thought i live in paraller dimension and thinked what is happening in my dimension. I, have tinnitus, hear iiiiii voice inside my head/ears, voices try to speak at top of it so that i would not hear them speaking, and/but schizophrenia makes tinnitus sometimes go away, so i hear what they speak anyway, they just speak words iii sound like, very high voice.