struggle of darkness and light

perhaps evil humanoids want to make people slaves, they do good and suffer, humanoids do bad and enjoys, yin yang.

voices sometimes mock me as i do tarot tables, they say that i think that it works like computer, i don't know how it
works, is there spirits in it, or something like horoscope.

is there any blackmetal humanoids
hehheh, no, its impossible
its because in my teenage years i liked black and my name was truebfd, true blasphemer from darkness, and i thought that
the light in me, it was not inside me, outsiders i ment then i did not like light, nowdays my probleme is as i wanted
eternally to be in darkness, now days i think its me only, my thougts and and all, it is about me, i abandoned light
can i never enjoy light, and i dont know nothing about fight or something, inner strugle of black and white, darkness
and light. i don't know does my voices hate me because of this all. i changed bfd to beyond from dream years ago.
i regret it, i wake up from sleep at morning with horrible feeling, dont even know, is it because of this. how to find
solution to this, its a struggle in writings, betterly written, i am like finding bugs in that text, somekind of...
i would like to get into nirvana. and be without karma, dont know is it possible in darkness, probably not. its like
hiding and going through maze of letters and trying to find better truth than it was before this.