lucid dream and matrix.

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i'm not guru or drug user to write these texts, i'm schizophrenic. schizophrenia is gift in european india, or they are
holy. in middle ages they were after schiphrenic until(?) carmelites(i'm not sure) protected schizophrenic because 2 of
them were schizophrenic (and i think that those times were not known mental diseaces, makes it strange.) and later they
were told to be holy. i told european india that none of you mix that land and people as american india.

(mulle, to me) merkkaa tämän alapuolelle numero, ota tämä ylemmät silti mukaan julkaistavaksi: aloita kirjoittaminen
myöhemmin tästä. kopioi & liitä silti ylhäältä.
start reading/writing frome here:

finnish:
henki is spirit (spi-ritual)
hengittää is breath
hengissä is alive

i do not remember all the things, somebody remembers by what they see, somebody sees letters and numbers, and you have
to cheat your mind, remember the thing you want to remember by something other than remembering the thing or thought.
your mind(schizophrenia) does not see/understand what you mean. for example remember notepad, but for me its quite hard
to remember what should i write when i'm on computer again, i have noticed that i remember by what i see. but i have
also remembered addresses where have i lived, i don't understand, i do not understand, i have sometimes said that
remembering things you do not need, is waste of mind, sometimes i see things i understanded as i got schizophrenia, that
is supposed to be fixed, by in miracle minded, like every memory is actually something that has to be fixed. it was
like my mind wasnt on right position, and as i remembered something, came naps, and it was on right position, then,
probably my schizophrenic voices put it on wrong position again. head is tilted, wrong position, is vinksahtanut in
finnish, i translated it and it is cranky. we sometimes mean we beceme insane. it is, you're "mentally insane/head is tilted means also you're mentally stupid some way". it is all the time, i get information, peehead is like saying, hahaa
i'm not gonna give you, and at the moment i'm thinking how does medicine work, does increase or decrease something
going in your head, does it work in miracle mans way, take some information because it is in fysical components something
that makes us insane, is that why someones do not want to take medicine, to some of them, voices say you're not
supposed to take medicine. and is that why someone, mostly in first state of psychosis, thinking i'm miracle man.
first state is what i mean is before we know we are insane, he has not been at mental hospital yet, i got into mental
hospital immediately. first polices took me, as free will from me, to prison, for a night, and at the morning to the
mental hospital, i could say, i was lucky.

somebody said somebody put my inside-me on coma as i took overdose of mushrooms, so that actual living in normal world-me
would not go, i said to someone about 7-8 years after that it was a good idea, i do not need to take care of it. he was
a friend of mine, handicapped and had been in coma.

pee head told me that he scared me, went behind me, someone told take me, anzih, and he took me, then it happened that i
gave him? its normal, backwords this is, i give, you take. but it is, he took, and i did not want to give. it was that
he took first, i did not give him first, as it was supposed to happen. what it was in miracle mans way? i understood
this is all my schizophrenia.

i remember while ago, something i had, information, he wanted to get it, but he wanted to know, as he took it from me
i had to take something from him, in miracle mans way. and he still has not got it. perhaps he shoud notice, what do i
give him all the time, every day all the time, but i do not remember at the moment what is he looking for.

waste of time memories, you are supposed to hande your information you have, i think it's something we all should do.
problem in our cult-ure, we do entertain us with things outside us happenings or eating something we should not. i'm
happy we, or most of us, has computer, you can choose very widely what you want to entertain with. not what original
computer freak did, but i'm still happy. so i mean someone just, by interest go to sites that has information about
horoscope, and from that site they find something more intresting, and so on it goes,

there is no afterlife after life. (bock ior)

horoscope of aquarius is root chakra, horoscope of pisces(fishes in finland) is sacral chakra. is it that everything
old has to go, and we have to find things to our coming human ways*. something we are all interest about. as we are going
to all go to root or base chakra, a base to everything new, is it that we have to build it again into new ways?
*cult-ure. i checked from internet. here comes some information in simple ways.
    root sing(ruot-si=sweden in finland) =root chakra, aquarius month is january-february, root chakra = genital.
mix yourself with these thoughts, perhaps you keep on what this all means. i do not have anymore.
perhaps janyary-february actually down of chakra not upper, are we supposed to look horoscope from down to up? and
months too?
    heart chakra is davids star, throat chakra is adams apple, what eve gave to adam and he almost choked, only
man has adams apple, not woman. perhaps woman gave something from his heart(looks like apple) to adam, a feeling into
his throat chakra (adams apple). Was jesus perfect heart man. what time was when time was heart, between 2000 years,
can we figure things with that information.lion is root chakra and heart chakra

human life is based on animal nature, that is what we have to cheat our mind in remembering, remembering things through
some other ways, this is in this dimension, can we have access to upper dimension?

before, we lived in this human world like in dream, we got visions about our future in this world, then something or
someone gave them lucid dreaming, it means when you realise you are only dreaming, you say, this is only a dream, i can
do anything, that is what this all is about, i don' know how matrix works with this. perhaps you shoud say, something or
somebody told them, this is only a dream, you can do anything.

if we calculate from this day, we live in aquarius, 2000 years ago was pisces, we can calculate what horoscope it was
when homo sapiens got its birth. it takes too long for me to calculate.