two dream dimension in one night

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i'm not guru or drug user to write these texts, i'm schizophrenic. schizophrenia is gift in european india, or they are
holy. in middle ages they were after schiphrenic until(?) carmelites(i'm not sure) protected schizophrenic because 2 of
them were schizophrenic (and i think that those times were not known mental diseaces, makes it strange.) and later they
were told to be holy. i told european india that none of you mix that land and people as american india.

(mulle, to me) merkkaa tämän alapuolelle numero, ota tämä ylemmät silti mukaan julkaistavaksi: aloita kirjoittaminen
muöhemmin tästä. kopioi & liitä silti ylhäältä.

start reading frome here:
about 20 years ago, i used to write about truth and meaning of life, perhaps i would write again if i can. or have
ability.

last few nights i saw dreams about i went where i was some how supposed to, i felt it after i really was intrested
where am i actually, and somehow i got free will, that is what voices told me. i went where i really wanted, and
remembered my dreams better. i understood that it was paraller dimension, and it was reality, not this where i live now.
it was like i got suddenly two choices*, and this free will choice was my choice betterly. this choice investigate
where am i was better choice than do some stupid like i normally do in dreams, voices said i have had drugs too much
and i was on eternal trip so i was on two places. i ment this choice was better, it was more intresting. and i felt
better there. did i take somebody else, and there was some persons i know are in this place where i am now, doing
different things, or are in different job here and there. in one dream i was interested where i actually spend my free
time, then i saw one familiar person, then i rembered, i am in mental hospital. but i was actually place where is mentally
ill people, not in mental hospital, and that person was familiar from there. dont know how i mixed up things.
* was those two places in dreams only, because last few nights i got more away where i have no free will, and i had two
different places in 1 dream. like somebody did not want me to have free will. if i get completely away from place where
i have no free will, dont know how it works, but i'm interested what happends. i'm scared do i awake from there, and i
have no ability to live in this place, and do i remember this, because if this place came same way to me, i want to keep
all the persons i know from here, like my family. i can say, or can i? i'm used to this place. i want to keep those
persons from here completely and want to live self here, dont know where do i have this other place, hopefully in dreams.
if i have to keep it somewhere, because i cant use drugs anylonger.