free will trick

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mun toinen blogi (suomeksi):
another blog of mine (finnish):
skitsofreeni.blogspot.com

i'm not guru or drug user to write these texts, i'm schizophreni. schizophrenia is gift in european india, or they are
holy. in middle ages they were after schiphrenic until(?) carmelites(i'm not sure) protected schizophrenic because 2 of
them were schizophrenic (and i think that those times were not known mental diseaces, makes it strange.) and later they
were told to be holy. i told european india that none of you mix that land and people as american india.

(mulle, to me) merkkaa tämän alapuolelle numero, ota tämä ylemmät silti mukaan julkaistavaksi: aloita kirjoittaminen
myöhemmin tästä. kopioi & liitä silti ylhäältä.
start reading/writing frome here:

addon to last text: free will trick = two choises, not to have free will anyway. (still on biblic road)
is it some kind of trick, to give me two choices, to still rule me after i have free will, i do not, because it feels
good, thats why im interested why and what happends. is it that i have to completely trust this thing/person completely
to get this thing, is it some kind of heritage, and afterwards i have this free will. do i have to trust free will, so
who or what do i trust then, thats what i suddenly undestood why people hate me, i want to be on my own, not to bother
anyone, i feel like if i have to trust someone/thing, i actually bother someone, dont know is it i can trust some thing
and no one is bothered.
    i want also have this realitys happenings and actually everything on me, not to change nothing, perhaps on dreams
only, dont know what happends. do i become nuthead, like i was in the beginning of schizophrenia.
    actually dream dimension is 5th dimension.
    i don't want to control anyone, do not want no one to control me, dont want to do nothing this to happend.
explenation, it feels good, so i have free will, yippee, and he laughs, because you have no free will.

i saw dream at morning sleep (just before wakening) everything from beginning of this eternity happends same like it
happened always, no matter if we went how much to the beginning it still happends same way, like i wanted to see my
parents*, it would not be nice if everything would of have to go away. i just hope we would have somekind of possibility
to change history somehow. some of my voices told me that beginning is also happening, so where would we have to go?
just go to live on other family or dimension? or are these always-sameway-happenings in same dimension only? does these
other dimensions have lots of different 3D worlds, just like this where we live? another beings and planets and universes.
has this universe dimension built only for this human planet? what are humanoids then, another dimension? its just that
how would this human dimension go away? would we just have to wait, and what? gnabgib? read it backwords. what would we
have to do to it then, suck it away fast until it would be bigbang again?
*and my other family too, but to know them would go away if we reincarnate. but i've readed that in some families they
wait that their whole family dies, then they reincarnate all, in same family again? but i thought it would be impossible
if they would have parents parent and childrens children. from beginning where there was minimal amount of human beings
to the end, until family after family goes away and someones just have new births.

i just realized that these texts that i've recently released on this blog, is not what it was supposed to mean to be on
this blog, so perhaps i correct that thing in next blog. i just wanted to introduce you to these things. you can write
there below which one you want me to write about, but i think it still goes randomly. i just hope i can interview
all kind of beings in my head body where ever in another dimensions spaces mythologies where ever.

stop that violence, stop that sex, just call it sweet, call it love, look in to the eyes and do that magic trick:
be in silence, listen that sweet sound behind that hill, try willingly to reach it with your eyes to see
yes that sweet state of...
oh that sweet taste of...