eternal, goblin

in english down there somewhere
you can write messages down there, it would be nice.

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mun toinen blogi (finnish):
skitsofreeni.blogspot.com

i'm not guru or drug user to write these texts, i'm schizophrenic. schizophrenia is gift in european india, or they are
holy. in middle ages they were after schiphrenic until(?) carmelites(i'm not sure) protected schizophrenic because 2 of
them were schizophrenic (and i think that those times were not known mental diseaces, makes it strange.) and later they
were told to be holy. i told european india that none of you mix that land and people as american india.

(mulle, to me) merkkaa tämän alapuolelle numero, ota tämä ylemmät silti mukaan julkaistavaksi: aloita kirjoittaminen
muöhemmin tästä. kopioi & liitä silti ylhäältä.

there is no another state of mind, we see only hallucinations an can be invisible, before i thought i was in another
state of mind or another dimension, but that is not what it is all about. but i do not know is there another side.
because i'm not sure, is its meaning where go when we die. later on i thinked, can you see some non existing place as
hallucinations, i think so, but does it remind this real reality, and where are we then? my voices said you can go into
space with space rocket/ship, i released this last thing no matter as voices said i should not. i thought this because
sometimes i asked where am i, i thought i had taken some drugs, and i, we were in another place, but they said we are in
same place, i did not understand. actually they said we are here, i thought they said we are in same place, and did not
understand, because i thought something weird was about to happend.

ok, someone to talk to
me, buubaa
what who are you
brobaply goblin
yes i, he is
ok, talk
i am insane
what
im insane
how
there is horrible in my mind
what kind of
horrible feeling
why, how
im insane
what do you want to talk
insanity
ok, talk what you want
im insane
ok, he is, goblin, not you
ok, he is, none of us else
but anzih
what else do you want to talk
i'm probably insane, not sure
hehheh
did you take too much mushrooms
yes, and now i'm on eternal trip
and now you are real goblin
hehhehhee, and yes i, or he, is
something important goblin, please
ok, i'm insane i'm insane i'm insane
do, say something insane
i'm goblin because on eternal trip
do you live in real world
yes
in city
sometimes, as i get away from here
where
forest
where forest
somewhere
ask someone
where am i
goblin forest
who was that
fatman
human
probably
who, what is he
are you hunter
hehhehhee, yes, and hunt goblins
yaik
was, that was probably joke
yes, of course it was
i admire goblins
do you want to be goblin
me, its important choice, and impossible i think
just take too much mushrooms
but i die
so what, and reborn as goblin
i have my family
i had no anykind of life
did you who became goblin try to make suicide
no one would not kill him self with mushrooms
-i'm going to smoke some pipe
i took about 38 mushrooms and live in reality
no, thats impossible
i ate 7 maizenah seeds also
well, your friends are there waiting for you
yes, thats what i've heard, but only temporarily sometimes only
so what, thats stupid, what is the use, idea of that
your friends anzih made something horrible to you
thats what i've also heard, but i'm never there and never will be, don't know what happends to me when i die
you go to heaven.

but i'm no christian, i have never been babticed
so you are real pagan
not old age pagan
so where do i go when i die
down world like in finnish mythology, kalevala

ok, something else to talk about
no, nope, yep nothing
ok, i release this
whats the idea of writing these texts
they satisfy my hunger of writing texts
ok, now i release, i'll wait a moment
-silence