extra sencory, im writing a text, this is small part of it

not a complete text, first 50 pages

extra censory : interview

Name/subject of the book :
Schizophrenias specialist, a patients aspect. And here(this) is reasons results.

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In finnish censor is translated as nuclear me, dont know is it right way to translate, i mean are they same word. It was not translated back as nuclear me. (deepest and uncosious, feeling based part of me) (hypothetical subconscious agency)

i’m schizophreniac, which is gift in some place where there is not so much developed culture, so you can think this is some sort of bluff, i’ve been allready in mental hospital, so you can call me insane, it does not matter. How schizophrenia works in individual, is based on his/hers culture.

I have fictive here, they are my voices, as they are not alive anyway, don’t know what they experience or do they not at all.

Mostly i interview humanoids. Fictive might come between us sometimes

This is book about paranormal and supernatural (check net what those mean)

i only use official medicine for official purpose, i talk about drugs but i do not recommend any drug use in any occasion.

They say they are worm humanoids, they tell me sometimes, else humanoids created them for me.

Sometimes they give me advices to protect me, example dont go in front of mirror, as they see from my eyes, because they sometimes believe some of them are else who i think they are, fictive (or real actually), and come to do something to me. But ive had this scizophrenia from 2002 late of that year, and still noone have done any harm to me, only voices mock me. Because they know me completely. Now they talked with each other and one of them realized he is not interest of my mundane information, will he now come to forgive me? Perhaps this seems weird, but i hope not, then i realize something which is not true, they are real.

humanoids:
Is there buildings in the moon
no, its fool censory

there is somekind of conspiracy, for me they told they are religious, but dont know, they have possibilities to buy stuff no other can, and do tv shows and be in them, have you ever wondered who where in those shows before no one ever even knew about those, or we did not, shows? They can do anything, they have only sin, they do not have this thing, they do not feel bad when they  do bad, like ’normal’, or do we? They think we are good and do not understand this teenage thing that is with us ’normals’ too, they have this thing with police or law, they do not need to go prison. We are their slave, they do not go to work, dont know is this real, because it seems so impossible. They think jesus is satan, they told me how it goes in bible and it seemed so real. but i’ve heard also that it is antichrist. Some of them get scared as they were told that we can be bad only, we ’normal’ people, because if no one is good. They also told me that jesus is humanoid. They have their own bible, dont know is it jehowah witnesses bible, they told me they are originally from times of jesus and came through me to this future, and washed them selves with cocaine to be white people, as they were originally black. They told i prevented these prophesies of bible, as i wrote they made those prophesies, not saw them. But from ancient times, someone saw there is coming those prophesies. They told me there is, or was, (because im adult) conspiracy against me and my family, dont know why, i’ve never done any harm to any one. There is so much to tell, i do not remember all things. There is this old ’friend’ of mine, dont know was it really he, he lied to people against me, he said to every one i’ve ment, even they never came friend to me, i talk backwards, if i talk something, he says it is backward. It is impossible, if i say i do not speak back wards, he says, and every one thinks, as he has teached every one, it means i speak backwards, i speak backwards, if i say it back wards, which i do not, because i do not speak backwards, is it somekind of magic trick that happends to me?.

I’ve realized there in these things some one tries to make sense of, there is no order in anything, everything is changing allthetime.

some of those say every trip is new life, and everything lasts only one trip, then new things comes for next trip.

They say those who started new religion, used drugs or were schizophrenic. I think everything in those religions was based inside them, and we are inside them, i mean those who believe those, that is why it is for some so real for them, they say in every city there is copy, or version of those religious creaters, also, add to this, they were wise and genius, dont know did they think they fool people or thinked it is real, well, for them it is(was) real.

There is no elite conspiracy, it is their inner world, but dont know, are they aware of it, are they really there.

There is no other thing to understand humans as machine, they are opposite human and computer, humans are alive, they have thoughts, computers are dead alike, and think, you do not understand, i know, but that is the way it goes. In middle there is something, like cyborg, but it does not mean/define humans as machine.
Is there computer as a human
intresting question, i don’t know
strange question
define it better, how does it differ from human as a machine
it is to understand computer as a human
i know you watched from internet, and realized computer revolution and become smart and start war against human, but i know you have asked why did they start this war, watch from internet and tell us
now i know they built machines as against their enemy, and you thoughed that hackers made them have war with every country. Or they tested these computers against something, maybe we stop this this leads to something and here is material you find from internet.

I noticed i started to call humanoids back here but was told they were forced away from here by fictive
now i’m lonely in solitude

i know you want to say about finnish word for 9, it is written and spelled y-hex-n, is it witch word/number, dont know because it was ancient times word, i think, i dont know was it ’invented’ by original finnish people or outsider.
And now you checked from internet has anyone invented this word, there is, but some old pagan poetry, propably because it sounded like it, don’t know did they realize, you came also with number 8, ka-hex-n.

Now you got it, human as a machine, who thinks, it is you, using brain probably, dont know is there in other countries some invented, in ancient times perhaps, in computer, he, it does not think, it computes.

Humanoids have abandoned everything but computing parts of them(?) senses are sub computing

shut up, you (dont) know nothing about computers!

This is like a nightmare
for some, but you are animals, some live in space
wise huminal
it is like humanoids for mankind, and this word means you for animals

why dont you appear for humans
humans would  be scared, and we cant show our selves for humankind, sometimes it happends
as an accident
can you
we are effected from humankinds head, thoughts, even some animals are wiser than you humans, some humans.

Humans get what he wants, if he is great

there is no such kind of conspiracy, its because it would be so cool.
Is there somekind of
somekind of yes, between religious movements.
How, why
because they love it, and no else would believe it, they do not want such kind of movement against it, them.
What are they secretifying, hiding
nothing great, something normal people do not understand if you have been sometimes readed about them.(would not understand)
what are they hiding and why
because they want to
we do not understand
you should not understand, that is meaning of hiding
so you do not understand
they are dangerous in our state of something
mind i heard
something like it, i would say in dimension

your ancestor created these mystic things you want to know, without knowing it is the thing you are attached now, without those, you would have nothing to know about, every truth is created, was and is, dont know why and how would you to be ability to emptify yourselve from them, would it be better if you would not never know about them, or is there path, did they create as it would be true anyway, and it would not be…? I mean it would be true, these things, or is there whole new things to be createn by you, out from emptiness, or would it be better if you should not read know or hear nothing about past creations. And what are these other creations? And anyway, why would they create these other realities?

Were you createn by someone
yes, everything/one is creation of something/one
isn’t there basic reality
some say, but it is so many years ago
but you do not have time
we are at one creation by once, and yes, we are through eternity as you say sometimes, but we don’t know when was it createn and how if there is no time
was it someone above your dimension
-
yes it was, as we knew you, we abandoned it, our reality
where are you from this time
no where, there is no reality in you, above you, nowhere.
When am i createn and something
you were created from black bird, we you do no know its name
do i live in this reality, as you say, there is no reality
no and yes, no one knows where are you at here
am i there
yes i think, we think
do you think
hehheh, we fictives mess up between you and humanoids
that is what i’ve been noticed/ing
why
we are boring/bored
we are being learned from you anzih and humanoids
what
that this is cool place
no its not, this is not
why do you not use drugs
i’m using medications
it is not same thing, and we have been noticing they do not have effect, or then you have been used to this thing called medication
where do i go when i die
i remember, you said or write that people do see darkness when they die, and they think they are dead.
Who or what did make this earths axis go wrong
i knew you somewhere thinked its about creations like stonehenge

everyone wants to joy/join this leisure in earth, but they do not understand thing they have effect there, they kill everything and they learn to blame these certain thing/s, they get blind and are forever and are imprisoned untill they fix it
you mean what have they done
i do not understand how to tell this to you, even you are too blind, or have no words, it is this thing we call maguchaa, exactly, you wrote said it correctly
so we should fix this magucha
no, it is included in this words
like one of my voices said ”you should fix your finger print” is that, or does that whole thing mean magucha
yes, correctly
one of my voices said, i dont know did you hear, ”you should do this magucha”
yes, you can say it that way
and this fingerprint is clean your effect towards earth
yes, correctly, one of you understood
and what effect
you understand one day
as this thing shines like flower grows and points towards sun.

Has this magucha something to do with free will
mostly
so it does not mean you, you have no magucha
no.

where are these virtual glasses and to other senses that kind too, if this is no reality
they would be inside your senses
but they are not, that is what i understood
no, we dont know how to explain, because you do not understand this hologram sense
does somebody understand
these kind of scientists
can you try to explain

are here these antichristillic machines
yes, they look like torturing machines but they take you to other realities and forexample give you eternal spirit
in what reality are they
in your reality
not in physical
someone have seen these, but it is what they believe into
so they change reality before see those
yes, they do not just realize it
-

now i understood, these hologram effecters are inside atoms
no, we don’t call them atoms
atom is smallest thing there is, and it is no smallest
is it light, air, blackmatter
light we would say(fictive) everything we see through, it has no air, atom, so where does it come from
you said if we avoid atoms, we can go through anything
what if i would say light is hologram, where this hologram comes from, hologram effect
you say in darkness there is no hologram wall
i do not understand, can we stop
sure
i just want to say, there is no atoms, in way they originally understood it is smallest particle, and that what you now call atoms, is also reflection of hologram
ok, one more question, where is this where from this hologram effects
-, inside you, you and you

what about astral projection
it is an illusion
illusion that exists
hmmm

air atoms are so small that those do not exist, as if you think everything has atom
what about oxygene
hihhihhihhihhiii
and what if fire burns oxygene
hihhihihhihhii
they fight
hihhihhihhihhii
what about warmth
it is from god
what about battery
hihihihihhiii
it is from god
what, battery
that air bringer
but they are fysical components that produces heat
hihhihihihhii
you mean batteries are alive
god does not need to be alive
is that warmth air producer love
hihhihhihihii
nohohoou
hihhihihhihhhiii

addon to that last, it is light, perhaps light produces warmth, perhaps spiritual light, i mean light is love, i have no experience, but i don’t think there is no cold either, i do not know, is there only light

but some one tells about experience, like, ”it was filled with light and...” ...not sure is it warmth or love, sorry about my missremembering(i remembered that i was not sure as i wrote)

can you help us with corona virus
no, it is about your mother earth
so you understand mother earth
yes, kind of, and we cannot help him
can you help with people
this is one way to harvest people, perhaps you think we are sick, but that is how it has always gone
what helps, should we pray or something
i and you have heard about those miracle healings, and i know, you do not pray
what if it kills every human being
then we create new kind of human being(i heard you kill, but i waited and realized i heard before that as i wrote. It was some of my pissed up of fictive voices)

if you create new human being, where do you go and where do you put those new human beings
we have no answer, if we would, it would happen most probably
or does it happen to us also, like did happen to dinosaurs
no, they were assholes, their anal and mouth were attached together, their mouth were in anal and anal in their mouth
something alike(fictives)
but some humans have immunity that dicease, virus
why do not doctors take sampple of this immunity and create anti to this virus, i mean pills injection or something
doctors know what they do
what about scientists
we are no scientists
but you, did atleast make tests for human beings
those were times before us
was it like 50 years ago, did you make you more human alike
it would be stupid(fictive)
-
we wanted to wander around humans home and make you better
are you humans completely, you got natural borning as humans
yes, some of us
we can go through this new eternity, and more and more people can effect on their past
is it not always been possible
for some, but now you need nomore to be something special, holy man or else

what about those who have been in tests by you, old persons, they remember, where is their memory
they should not remember
what if they do
then we are pissed off(fictive)
humanoids, what if they remember
(probably talking with each other)
we were thinking with each other

do you know to who you are on contact with, people who think to be humanoids
so what, they have great ideas, like they would be humanoids
humanoids, what do you have to say to this
-(wondering)

what if i have an idea, it comes from tv even it has been recorded before i invented it
you have paradoxal connection with television, or you have gotten it because that idea comes to other people also, but mostly this seems like someone sees this before you, and gives it to you to ’invent’

you have this thing, you convince people to think they are humanoids, perhaps fictive your voices also.

Addon to this religious thing, only they have licence to beat people up

some of them do not understand no word, if you say no i do not, they understand yes i do, or should i say they understand only yes word. And should i say, yes i speak only right way. They do not have some things in their bible like normal people have, are they gnostic.

Do i have chip in my neck
no and yes
it was our parents and we are not interested because we are fucked up(also upset i heard) because of them
so humanoids also get fucked up to their parents
yes
hihhihhiii
so im inside you in somewhere where is this chip thing with you
humans stole it

mushroom came as someone smallened tree
yggdrasil tree
yes, and earths axis went wrong
i do not believe you
just do not, that is the way it goes
you know that nervous tree came into you
yes, i was in normal state of mind, i was scared
hihhihhihhihhhiii
what about cannabis
it exploded your head
what about amfetamine
winter came, you know it
what exploded
gods got nervous
what about else drugs
just name it, we will tell
alcohol
nothing, human came corrupted, god humans i mean
what does it mean
they became like you
i mean you are like them, it is not your fault or mean something good to you, i mean you and like you are not appriciated more than else humankind
what about food
it keeps you in earth, i mean alive
yggdrasil tree was not cutten, it exploded in every level
what about beings in other level
they – (are alive in human world, in secresy)
have not they always been
no and yes, you kept contact in past
not any more
no, have you not noticed
yes i have been noticed
i was just thinking
just think, thinking does not help
what about you
we make decision after thinking together that helps and is the way it goes

can you help me with schizophrenia
it is no dicease, its a curse, and is still normal
i kind of am scared if someone helps, i dont know how voices go as i loose it
you mean they are still alive in you, i mean as if you think they are alive
-

what does this corona virus do to humankind
simply it gives immunity to people who have been effected and have been had it
what about else
they are gone
dead
and this corona never goes away
when you no more need it
originally i ment does it change something inside us
genes you mean
we are not to understand
(i think they are scared to say)
ok, they who survive are those who were ment to, superhuman
so this corona virus stays as long as there is no one left
no, then when there is noone to put dicease to
they who have been at home will survive and it goes away
yes, some sort of way

this world came as someone left trip alone
what world
your world
my schizophreniac
yes and no, it effected to your whole lifetime
but this physical world has nothing to do with me
it is about everyone
how
they are effected by it
how
originally, or later, here became helpers, and they corrupted also
do they think they are part of this answer
heihhihhihihii
no(yes)
-

when you die, you disappear
umph

you are insane(fictive)
yes, i know it

how this world became so complicated
-
yes, it just came
was it planned
yes and no
what
it was planned later
how why
they did not get rid of it
who
inside this world
was they stuck
yes sort of
did someone imprisoned them
yes and no
they did not plan it, they tried to be cool, even that word was not invented yet
did you help them
no, we laughed
then what happened
things got serious
how
we dont know, we did not plan it
can you tell something
they got crazy
some off them, few
what did they do
like stars, famous, they tried to make them eternal
what was result
some of them, later, came like those stars, even real them died
what is their dead
they die like normal
you mean religious
yes and no
famous rockstars left heritage only in music
where would they live
you mean ancient famous
yes
in stars
why there
they liked darkness
it was like dreamtime to them
did they sleep
some of them meditated their sleep
like you knew
yes, something more
no and yes
we know you(fictive?)
what about caves where some of them went
what about those
nothing i guess
but still something, even little to tell
they liked darkness
like i liked darkness
there is something mysterious in it
you used to listen blackmetal
yes i did, then, they say, i invented blackmetal conspiracy
yes, tell about it
we started to listen to trance as fake metalists started to listened black metal
but it never turned again
no i guess
but you listen both music
my voices say blackmetalists are gay christians
hihhihhihhihhiii
original
dont know
why gays
darkness like asshole
why christian
someting to do with nazis
but they hated christians
satan is religious thing
and they are young who hate their obey thing
parents
yes
but you writed about those things
i have nothing to tell about it
and you are pagan
no, it s christian or religious word too
and you were not baptized
no
dont really know what is it all about
my parents said they did not want to pay church taxes and if they go to church to make something they bribe priest, i mean we, children and dont want to tell nothing about my personal things
yes, we understand, dangerous
yes, i guess
you want to tell something about pagan word
it means folk who live countryside
and christian religious what ever lived in city
that is what some, dont know who, tells me
but they ’blame’ you about inventing these things
i think those words came to some other people too, not only for me
how is it possible, in earth
dont know, something to do with those other realities
yeehehes
you told me once you do not laugh
we invented from you
how have i changed you
we are like normal humanbeing
in human form
yes, some of us
they came to you
yes, they readed your blog where you used to write these texts
how if you did not like if i interview you
we no longer like or dont like
it is normal for us
from others too
we saw someone were intrested
and they did nothing with or against us
do they get connection
no, gladly
so its my thing
yes
you started to read books about us when you were something about 9-10 years old
yes
dont know why i answered
hihhihhhiihihii
you have some books about these things, written by those famous book makers who has something about us and conspiracies
no one beliefs those, and that is why we dont care, or those who has conspiracies
but someone tries to know
they will never know, they have no connection, and they are called insane, schizophrenia or something
yes
like you
they say i’m miracle man, in finnish(ihmemies)
who
we know but tell
other like me, who has that kind of nature, natural
and some use, as they call, psychedelic to be in connection
and you see nothing
i have not been consentrated enough
and you eat medicine, and know those effect
yes, inreasing or decreasing something inside me
and you think that is why
i think those things makes me this miracle man, and medicine has effect on those, trying to get rid of these natural stuff inside me
they and you say those have no effect in you
dont know
this one ’medicine’ helps with my panic
because you want to
i dont think so
yes it is so(fictive?)
we dont know, something, and this is the end of this fellow
hihhiihhihhihhii, jim mmorrison getting arrested middle of the show
yes
end
ok
something(fictive)
no, nothing, you felt it
yes

something to add
listen jim morrison : american prayer

myth-theo-logic
yea, it fits all religions
theology part mostly, others too
that other part twoo, to too, to two, two two
hihhihhihhihhii
insane word
you like it
yes and no
i hate it and i scare it
you hate what you scare i know that
hihhihhihhihhii
yes
how do you know
i’ve noticed, long time ago, at time of my schizophrenia, after 2002, later that year, my psychosis ran after me saying i kill you, later said you tried to get me out of trip, and i was not on a trip, or am i still?
Its so real, you
you are not, you are my schizophreniac voices, fictive, as you do not exist anyway, only thing is you speak and see what i see, through my eyes, and are in middle of my body, not in head anymore.

They say sometimes, movie ’it’ is comedy, south park and simpsons is horror movie, everybody laughs as someone gets hurt, ’it’ is comedy because there is this funny clown, who act in funny ways. Perhaps this has some elements from schizophrenia, schizophrenics laugh when someone cries and cries as someone laughs, some of them

as humanoids talk without moving their mouth, telepathicly, they do not need to know different languages, it changes in somewhere to your own language.

Very long time ago, i heard that their skin is space suit, but ive seen humanoid autopsy, they have also organs inside them, sounds like it is their temple.

If we schizophrenic are telepathic, who do we talk with
in space ship with us or other who are here
nothing to add
are we there, how
you just are
but we are here
really you are here
in what world
in our world
your world is hologram
i do not still understand hologram, at least not in scientific way
there is no scientific, in your science sense
does that mean you are more scientific, in with with sense
through us you are here
but where is this world
in space
where are you
in space, ship
okay, i do not understand
you are not supposed to, yet
when
when these conspiracies are off and gone
but i do not believe, or does someone read those and does something to them in way they do not do those
funnily understood
is it so
somehow so
i think
how we see this ’new world’ what ever
you are scientific our way then
immediately
yes and no
some are scared
because they get schizophrenia
no
what then
they get something, perhaps information they do not understand
why are they scared
i allready told you
tell again
they get information they are not ready to comprehend
ok
why are these famous billonaires part of these conspiracies
they are been brainwashed
how
inside them, for years
where from
in their schizophrenia what they do not have
heh
have i been brainwashed
you mean us
you tell us
perhaps i want to, i waste my mind this way, it means i like this and so on
no you are not brainwashed then
you mean i create my reality
yes, inside
do you go away, disappear completely if i do not believe in you
you tell us
i do not want you to go away
and why, what do we give you
i said what do you give us
dont know, you get your message to my outer world, or inner, from inner to outer
you are not famous
my voices read these
ok
is that enough to you
yes
perhaps someday you get your message through to other people too
you know you are through eternity, you can hear voices through time
i know i have these fictive voices, do they remain fictive or schizophrenic untill i understand or believe they are supposed to be real
no and yes, someone tells they are evil spirits
yes ive heard, i think that is stupid and dangerous to us, harmfull
you thought all those who believe that thing they get these thing they understand evilspirits are actually way they are only schizophrenic
that is relief
i think so
so they have evil spirits because they believe so
but i never believed
and there is these voices who mock you
it is past you have, perhaps they are not really them, perhaps they are fictive because you are not willing or ready to think/believe that way
why does this program tilt for a while sometimes
you know, conspiracy
i do not believe that way
i readed there becomes this thing where someone will be arrested somehow because this conspiracy
thing
yes, if you believe that way
so it does not come to real world
they are looking for perfect humankind to do that, i mean whom through it is possible to happend
ok
where does this otherway happend
they who are somehow effected through their power, these famous conspiracy human
ok
you mean like bill gates who they blamed for being part of one of these conspiracies
yes
so i use windows and am effected by it
bill gates is allready guitted his work in windows
yes i know
so how can he effect
we dont know or understand
do they need to have lots of money
money is power and money corrupts
so that is how people think so that is way it goes
you do not believe
i dont mind if i would be millionaire or billionaire
what would you do with money
my own house where is my own doctors and those who help me, there would also be those who would be willing and has somekind of mental illness, who are friendly to me
should they pay you
i need somekind of money source
perhaps i would sell service to society and be boss here, i mean there
we cacn do it
that is dangerous to tell some moneyinpower dude
i would have my own private part or apartment there
so you would get money from patients and use that to living
yes, it does not work if i loose money all the time
when did you think this
as i wrote it
ok, you are fast
yes :)
what is that
watch it sideways
hehhehhee ok i understand, smiley
yes, good old smiley
how old
tens of years, dont know
when there was no internet yet
yes, only bbs
did you know www was invented for US army
yes we know
we know how it came available to normal people
they get caught and someone wanted to invent or show this to whole humanity
yes, you know too
that is how i thinked it goes
so you are part of our source, we did not realize
perhaps you should check how things go, i just get something not written in texts as i read it
ok, that is okay, nothing to panic
i did not know i am your source
what do you do to me
-
-
thinking
togetherthinking
ok  we would abandon you but now you are our real source, we know how do you think
did you connect me to some machine
you have always been
like everyone
no, you are one of these lonely people here, inside your own machine
ok, is it harmfull to me
only if you think so
is there my schizophrenic voices
now we are investigating you
ok
tell me
there is some bubbles what are not in normal togetherpeoples machine
where do they come
you saw in shop this machine where, in what was water and bubbles, different colors
yes, i saw it somehow
through your mind
something alike
is there really this word in finnish what we call ’mielikuvat’ and is it reality
no and yes
you have spreaded it, i mean you too
that was mind pictures in english and i have no other real word for it in english
ok
stop it
now you are fighting with your brother
ok, no i’m not
inside your mind pictures
why
you dont know
we thought you could tell us, so we cannot know
cant you investigate
yes but we dont know how
you people are like each of you are different machine with different operating system
heh, sounds cool
we know you dont like that word
yes but i have no other word for it
just tell i, you like it
it sounds stupid or uncool
i know but we dont like fashion
i had this thing too in my past
we know, that is how we have used to know you one way
it sounds like i am shy
but you are shy, and not because, as you think, use drugs
yes, medicine, i like normal words
someone calls these drugs
someone abuses these medicine
that word is no abuse
ok, have, use them wrong way’
there is no wrong way in you
you think everyone, categorize everyone
yes, i understand
sometimes before, not necessarily realized it
yes
something is wrong with you
am i broken
no, you are humanmachine
i have these panic things
that is what we have not been used to in people like you
why, what does this mean humanoids
we are not humanoids(fictive interfering)
it means you are humanbroken
so am i machine
you could not understand
i understand, i saw
yes you did, but can you tell
i am like human and we are in these watercapsules
yes you are
do  you use us
no, we just help you, and people like you
how do you use or something us
we just do something
you put different medicine in us with these hoses
no
ok, i cannot tell, i do not understand
you have been too long with your selve
what do you do to us
we cannot tell, or show, you see wrong mind pictures
i have always thought so
that is how it came to you
piece by piece
somehow that way
i am what i believe
yes, i no religious way
ok
can you put these wrong mind pictures go right way
you can by thinking new way
i got it, are you like psychologist
in a way yea
in what way do you effect to us in there space ship
through your and our mind
our mind there
you have no mind here
what then, what is in those capsules
it is what how you think
and i believed in past, where did i got that idea
you readed between lines
you mean i added something i realized or thinked about what i readed
yes
where does it come from
from your eternal ’mind’
space mind
somehow yes
so we get connection to our past lifes mind as we grow

i thought did they have schizophrenia who said your like are bad spirits
yes, dont know how to understand if they get ’real connection’ what ever it means
we used to be bad spir… no, humanoids untill we met you and realized what is the use
so everyone are schizophrenic, like me too, who are you
we are magic, we can be what you want, spirits, humanoids, good folk, holyman, who ever
ok, where do you get information
we get our own spaceship if we, you want, or we want you to want to us
heh ok
where are your origins
in your past long time ago
in this life
in this life from this life to your past and future
i dont want nobody to be in my future
dont worry, it chanes way you think somehow
i dont want any prophecies, what is the use, did they create those long time ago
they really believed
ok, its about beliefe
yes
how can we undo those
you cant
just create my own reality and let them suffer who wants
ok, its no helpy, or easy
first you, or us, have to get people or people part into your reality who really something
i understand
tell to your ’audience’
part of them what is about this prophecy
so you want them to abandon it
yes please
it comes sometimes through time in every happenings
they are filled with stupid thoughts
no, dangerous
yes, do they scare people, is it governments conspiracy
they took it and shaped it in way that helps them
yes, that is what i have been readed
it is that way, but you do not need to be scared, nobody really believe in you
heh, i dont know, or i do, thank you
it is no our fault
or help
no
is that it
that is how i felt
but perhaps i wait for while if something comes

are you really alive
only if you want to, and we can make you want to
are you threttening me
no, we need you
are you in connection with other people
only through what you go through in your schizophrenic mind
ok, what do i go through?
talk with other people
but you have no connection to them
we would not even want to, or need to
what is this thing as i hear their voice i do not believe in
it is your schizophrenia
and i can define it way i want?
Yes, i guess
and we know you dont want your voices to talk with real people about lies they think what you have done or do
i dont want neither want to believe it is true what real those whose voice i have done to me
yes, we understand
like psychologist
yes, in sort way yea
you sometimes say way you have heard in some songs or bands
yes, in sort way yea was spoken by king diamond, probably with his dead grandma
yes, i’m insane(schizophrenic voice, fictive)
is he really insane
atleast this character king diamond is
so i can create alter ego who is insane
you allready had in past
yes but i thought people got it and went insane sort of
yes we know
you went!(fictive)
yes i went, i roamed around this small city
and then
i don’t want to talk about it, it is probably also schizophrenic voices invention
so you think they create falce memories
yes
yes they do, but it does not mean it would not be true
so they took those people, who i thought were friends of mine and made these horrible things to me
i didnt mean complitely that way

they told me they are creation of my mind and schizophrenia is word to keep us blind, well somewhy i want to believe i am schizophrenic because i would really go insane if i would believe otherways. They also said me i can call them way i want, like i think king diamond called ’them’, i mean this king diamond alter ego. What should be my alter ego.
You had this indian in your head, indian chief called azazara
yes i had, is that my alter ego
you can keep it that way
i have this characher i created that would fit, anzih, that is way my friend, which is also schizophrenic, calls me (in my schizophrenia), but he says in my mind he got rid of it as he told he is not schizophrenic and i started to call it indianzih, i just realized it sounds like indianzief, that way
it cannot be your creation this anzih
i am not willing to say why
you cannot create alter ego, they have used to think what you are, it is like chanching your real name, and you are real and have this real name. And i thought you want to say everyone who has, or just had or this schizophrenia came to their mind, should create alter ego.
Yes
can you tell someone, doctors example
yes if you believe so
can these creations of my reality spread it
no, you do not think they are real
but i have not closen this possibility
you should, here is so many lies about you, also those memories what schizophrenic created
some of them agree with me
yes, but these harmfull and those who mock you do not agree
i have realized it

why don’t you tell what drugs you have used
i just wrote in beginning what i use, so i do not need to
but you have used drugs, what drugs!(fictive)
ectasy, amphetamine (or what we here call piri), mushrooms and cannabis
heh, finally you came out(fictive?)
yes
are you relifed(fictive?)
no
i would(fictive)
how, how can you

so you think these your alter ego voices should have cool name, i mean not with that cool but somehow yes
yes
i think it is cool name for them, just think, fictive, everyone thinks you are fictive and have fictive voices in your head
it is kind of unique, or as you looked what meaning do we have here england, or us, singular
are you from us
yes, and we have told you, just to remind and to tell other, it is us, not america anymore
i think that came from internet
yes, what
dont know
is this the end of this fellow
ok
just wait for a while if something pops into my mind, where ever
inside, aint that cool name, we can use it from now on
ok
where from inside
inside, and we think you understand
do others
cant you anymore think way other, atleast might think
some one told you this word we, or sentence we talked denies it from you and you nomore cant think that way
i want to believe, i just easen and want to believe so that is sometimes how i manage to arrange it
ok, fine
are you mad at me
you sound like indian, european indian i mean
i do not understand as someone writes in finnish about american indian as we have different word for american indian and european indian
yes, they came to this indian land and thought they are european indian, that was definition they used for them and they looked like same, i mean this american indian came later when they realized world is no flat
i think and said galaxy is flat
yes, that little dust balloon, galaxy i mean, milkyway i think, in finnish we call it ’linnun rata’ birds orbit.
Heh, you checked from dictionary just so we would know it
i think i checked so i can interpret to me
but how can we know
because of this telepathy
so you hear how you understand
something like that i heard you say before
but can you interpret these your thoughts to us
well, you should know
yes we know.(fictive?)
pretend you are my psychologist, and i used to have psychologist to whom i talked about my life and he said i have depression, which is first symptom or diagnosis for schizophrenia, i think they give people medicine what makes them this way, i had this medicine, cipramil, in finland they call it
no, we cant be your psychologist
why not
we would interfere with your real psychologist and you
ok, cant you have different name,
heh, than psychologist
i mean different personal name they had
like humanoid psychologist
heh, no, i think fictive should never be nothing than they are
but we are symptom of your schizophrenia, or do you still think we, they are humanoids
i want to
so it shall be done
that is from somewhere
probably
where are humanoids
in ’together meditative sleep’
in their form of sleep
and you cannot interfere them
i do not want to
i…
?
dont again say this end happened to jim morrison in his live show to real audience
it just pops to my mind
ok
you sometimes makes these humanoids, and probably us, your fictive voices, real beings in where we interpret reality
hope not prison
you know why this god(in teology way, not real, only interpretable through words) imprisoned them
yes, he created reality and they came evil, what would you do evil people in your own creation
i just create ways they can have their free time, and they can also create things
no you should not do that
so what, i have not been putted nothing in my creations for a long time
’pagans’ had fun life
there were these shamans and witches, in one book he told, or i understood, witches were like shamans but they were evil, they putted curses to people
they are, were probably schizophrenic, as you or someone interprets
i don’t want to talk about ’pagan’ things
why not, we can tell you
just tell,
i want to tell, i smoke some pipe, this european tobacco, as indians, american indias have their own tobacco, from another plant
yes, they putted these harmfull ingredients to that tobacco
probably to decrease folk from planet
another conspiracy
i did not think it that way before
you have these voices who are part of your brains ...thing, you understand
yyes, no i go to take vitamine pills
it does not help
so what, i have used to think it does, and i think it effects some way if i do not take, even it would not be true
i want to tell, no vitamins lone can keep your body alive
yes, we need something someone do not understand, i would call it something to fill my stomach
-
humanoids told they take this thing inside what is above their dimension, i interpret from beings above them, but are they connected to those beings, i ask
do you have and what connection with these upper dimension folk where you are
sometimes, sometimes they are normal people who come here without no understanding what do they do, they who are there as origin, do
why are they there
because of love they feel
ok
is it okay to origin folk
yes and no
i heard someone told about oldtimes hippie
yes, we were in big problem with them
so you took them away
no, we are not supposed to
what happened
they came here and forgot real meaning
they had these protests in earth
that is part they did
was it harmfull
no human can do harm to us, they go away if they do not fit in because of their thoughts
did they come through drugs
yes, and understood, some, most, what is their meaning
new meaning
no, that was their destiny
to use drugs
yes
something problem with this hippie thing, i dont want to interpret them here
that is what we thought also
so they understood this is no place for them and went away
yes, some
insane thought, i feel like i am not ready for that kind of things
you mean hippies
yes
you just are not ready to this hippien definition
is that so
yes, you do not want to interfere them any way
i do not want to be in connection with them, and i want they do not be connection with me
that is sad, they are really good
in there space somewhere
dedinetely, somewhere
just listen to jim morrison
i feel like im not really on that mood
so you listen mostly trance in different ways interpreted
like goa and psychedelic
but you do not have experience in psychedelic sense
i do know, just am not ready into something with it, and no i feel like i cannot listen to music either
i think you do not need any drug connection, it comes with music
hope so, am not sure do i think that way

in what do these religious actually dedicate their life to, because for me everything is forbidden, or used to
-
they dedicated their life to them selves
so they could be what
perfect
what is this thing that makes them perfect
they do not interfere with nothing physical reality
where do they go
they go still to grave
why
they are blind
are they scared
if you think so
i dont want to be religious
-
you do not want to be in connection with them
yes
you want them to be in connection with you either
yes
then they are gone, but you cant make them loose their lifes
i know
i dont actually care, and i think it helps

you have these letters…
yes and i dont want to put them, those into this text, book what ever
so you think nobody gets message of this book
it is therapy to me
writing
yes, clearing my thoughts
good invention(fictive)
i thought i could release this puplicly but i realized while ago that this is therapy
you have written like 4 pages this day
yes
so it is to ?
Clear my thoughts
how, we do not understand(fictive)
perhaps i do not need to explain this thing to you
but you have to
think it is psychologist way to me
so now you understand
no
psychologist talk with patients about their life and they interpret what is you personality, like anzih had depression and he got medicine and went to hospital because of it
because medicine
that is way anzih interpret
ok
cool
but anzihs mother said it became because he wasted too much time with computer and games
perhaps it made him walk around city and it led to depression and that is one way how people go insane
using too much computer?(fictive)
anzih played most of time something like 1993-2002, when ever he just was awake, during nights also, slept only when felt sleepy, during days also
but he was on these social courses
yes, and something believes that is one way how something helped anzih to get so far withouth going insane
now he said, one of his voices that is only his way to call him
anzih
yes
hope it goes away from other people, i mean schizophrenic
yes

why dont you call them names they have
they have real them in reality and i dont want to interfere with them
ok
understood
in no reality either anymore
ok
but you saw them, one of them in reality
psychologic illusion

just wanted to say, pagan is latin word, i transfer it as country bumpkin, mock word, i knew the word, just translated it with internet information. This is my opinion.

Some one translated to me years ago, if someone has black eyes, they do not know what happends outside of them, something like blind, like humanoids, but someone told they have eyeglasses.
Now someone said i should not  write my own opinions on this text, i should ask them about them about these things

i thought is space like plastic bag, if you go too far it stretches, you cant go outside, because it stretches and more you go, you start to go sideways against the plastic bag
funnily understood, but we understand you, it is like plastic bag and goes the way you explained but why cant you go outside, we dont understand, why cant you make hole to it as you try to go in one point
is there some sort of teleport at the end of it
no, it is eternal
i thought long time ago it is wide enough
no, it is eternal, as if you think there is paraller dimension, eternally places
ok, i wrote years ago it is wide enough
no it is not, it is wide as you go
how if i dont understand
you can put your thoughts go from point where you are, if it is too wide for you to understand
i think i go insane as if i do not understand
very understandable from your point of view, you try to see everything, just try to see one place at time, how far ever you ever see at once, it is like you do no need to see everything at once, information i mean. Why ever yoou want to see everything at once in nearly every possible at once, there is information all possibilities, so you do not need to go insane. Think there is places which are same alike, but there in possibilities enough, every possible ways, and you have used to think there is places in paraller dimensions which are very different, different senses example.
I dont want to tell where these possibilities you see are able to you
yes, we know too, but let that be and able to see for different kind of people, folk, humanoids and else living forms. Like these very tiny organisms of life have very different  senses than we humans and alike, and as you readed, some of their senses are based on human senses, i mean senses we also have but they do not, scientist understand those senses complitely, and people want to have senses of wideness, like you readed some living have.

I thought you said beings with brain have added or something senses in their brain, no, everything inside people have are based on normal senses human has, it is like you have not seen pictures from space, you see it differently, but there is nations, ancient where humans had information from planets and they made pyramids and buildings based on information they had from space, planets for example, and now people, some of them, say it was humanoids who gave this information. Very understoodable, as they say their gods were humanoids
why do you want to write everything from books you have readed(fictive)
it comes from other things we speak and sometimes i get other information what to add to that information what have not been wroten, yet
how did humans understand this information, did they blindly understand information possibly given to them by beings from space
very intresting, perhaps we come soon with information you can write
they understood and examined
but how to examine
you dont know, you know but dont want to tell because you do not have information based on your experience
yes
perhaps you never understand if you do not try to
ok, no i do not want to, but it does not mean i blindly write what you tell, because i understand it somehow… what you tell me
try to understand they are not humanoids(fictive)
that is what i and them have understood, they said  they are based on my schizophrenia, but it does not mean they are not real, or alike.
Ok, i understand, or should i say, you understand(fictive)

did there really was this lord in the beginning, and what beginning
in humanitys beginning, i quess, if he really did exist
well, did he exist
no(fictive)
where was he really exist
in humanitys creativity, spiritual world, where everything is possible, i quess
how did he became as humanbeing
no he did not(fictive)
he was not humanbeing, humanoidbeing, as if we created him
half human half humananoid
fun
aint it
like humanoid gods
so you got it, we didnt know you can know
how can he be in beginning
he lived in like humanoid world, but there were no humanoids
what was there
spirituality
what is that to you
we do not understand, it is complitely strange place to us, and if it can be creativity
creativity like gods creation, is god artist
no he is not, he has to be scientist like
scientist and artist
mostlikely
is it fantasy world
no, it is more like rpg
ok
i think i got it, end?
Okay, we will inform you if nothing i mean something comes to our mind
ok
rpg is like middle ages and pagan things, beings
what about cyperpunk
fool sensory
but it is no prophecy
still, they really thought it is that like, this year as it is in that fantasy rpg, or scince fiction
they used their creativity, but they were no scientists ...i think, dont know or believe
and anyway, i think they really did not believe world would be that alike like it is now and when they wrote about it
perhaps they wanted to, or wanted to know or think whatkind of world would be in this year
ok
because if they would know, or something, they would of written what it is like
think it is only creativity
none knows for sure
where is this hologram process
you readed it is at the edge of universe, but what if there is no edge of universe, so it is… saddly not true
where would it process
no where, it does not exist
how do you explain this process what world is
it is called physical reality, and you know its laws things whatever
is this hologram, or some sort of virtual reality
no, everything is in this universe, it does not project from no where
how would you explain this physical world
atoms and alike
ok, not complitely agreed but laws of hologram process does not convince me
so you still think this is no reality
dont know
this is reality, but what kind of, i hear you ask
yes
this is called reality and is created by atoms and alike, nothing to add
ok
they need somekind of explanation, but what would these holoram processes at the universes edge
where
nowhere, it does not exist, as we have told you
this is endless, and what would be behind the edge, another reality?
Yes i know, i remember from my childhood as someone asked me where does this universe end and he told this brick wall thing where there at the edge is brickwall, and i saw him go insane as i told truth him
so you knew
yes but i understood it has to have some sort of explanation, as like you told you can watch one place at a time in this endlessness
where would this hologram process be as if you would explain this theory more real alike
nowhere, just understand, it is not true
ok, still i think or see me intrested and explaining to me as if some scientists agree with this hologram theory
they are liars(fictive)
that is how they want to explain as someone needs explainment
ok, i agree
i told you but tell again, what materia would these hologram process makers be
dont know, guess they cannot be hologram
yes, finally an explanation
too much computer games, i guess, or something
movies
heh, yes, agree
think of it, scientist watching science fiction films or playing 3D game
yes, what about if they would bring rpg things too
heh, yes, think about that
perhaps it can become reality in gene manipulation, giving properties to humans
heh, yes
but there would be hair color or eye color and everything else what living beings have
they did put fish genes, cold resistanse gene in flower
did they, fools
what happens, only in that flower or somewhere elsewhere, space or something
i do not agree(fictive)
no, we dont agree neither, humanoids
i thought it effects somewhere if humans are astrologically in space somewhere
they only give properties, do not take
what if humans interfere with it
it does not matter
like you used to develope human beings, evolution i mean
yes, we are not that stupid that we would not know where does it effects
ok, good
i mean i, we know what we do
completely
at least we have not notices any effect elsewhere
to who did these astrological processes effect
you ddont know
no
no one i guess
what was their, i mean planets meaning
we were thinking you develop
did we or did you make us develope, i know you did
yes we did, have not never given any thoughts about astrology
who invented it
perhaps another humanoid race
what race are you
we are your humanoids
not some race is in reality, in some reality
no
where did you come
no where, we came here as you noticed our existance
so no humanoid race exist for people who do not believe
heh, yes, i guess(fictive?)
but they say you are, or some, is in outerspace and are millions of years ahead of our development
yes, perhaps you do not understand but this evolution started to you in beginning of this planet, not when humans were created
ok, were in your creation some beings there were in beginning of this planet
we were also bacteries, what ever, as we noticed they were no bacteries, they were some else, still alike, and no, we did not have these horrible beings in our developement, we come in peace
ok, how long you have been in this developed state, this like we are now
we are not like you, impossible to tell
but you could not be scientist or alike as you were bacteries
why not if we live through eternity, as you told or inventetd
ok
who created this eternity of you
some other developed being above our reality, or dimension as youve readen
have you seen him
no and yes, he is dream to us
you believe he is real
we need to
what would happen if you would not believe
dont know, we want to think this way
think or believe
both, we think what we believe to believe, that is how things work
for us too
you invest your reality
what did you do
in benning of our developement you mean
yes
we nomore do nothing but believe, that is basis of our creativity, or science like you have used to say
like we still invent or bring truth how this world of our exist
the further you go, more you understand about creativity thing, where is your science based on
is it
i think so(fictive)
who invented first science thing
like egyptians, believed in things pyramids do
and used creativity, science i mean
yes, perfectly understood
ok, endd of itt
guess think so
you mean feel
guess so
just end this(fictive?)
their place and this thing how were they were built were based on suns movement, like else ancient nations

what happened as earths axis went wrong,  or did it go
dont know(?) but these old nations, ancient, buildings were based to correct this axis go wrong
did it, i remember as i thought it that way
perhaps it is your fault if we are wrong
is it, cant you see, if you are through eternity
happenings in timeline change
ive heard too
so they no more build these things in past
it have been erased from memory of this thing you call… dont know do you have word for it
ok
what about this axis thing
it went wrong, yes, based on your brains thoughts of what you have readed
does it go straight
why would it go if that is not true
eskimos have noticed sun have been gone wrong way, or correct way
dont know about eskimos
but they have found pyramids at pole place
yes they have
are you really humanoid anymore, your information seem so… not much knowing
yes we are(fictive)
ok, i end this, nothing clever comes this time no longer

something to add:
behind the hologram process, another one to process these first hologram process
yes, another explanation like youve readed, new version of what is behind this brick wall at the edge of this reality

if everything is energy, how would you explain this thing
nothing, we are not far enough, we get information from you
but i readed it months ago, or years
we just get caught into this information
as i readed from gaia.com
yes and no, we are eternal
don you get any new births
no and yes, sometimes we need to, we call that process as we goto machine and develope like evolution
personal or together
personal and together
how does that happen
we are not suppose to tell
tell me a little explanation
ok, we trust you get it straight, right way
we are in machine  and develope
all of you at the sametime
we do not need everyone
you have somekind of person who have ability to put everyone to develope
yes, correct, we would not understand you get it right
is that it, what about this energy thing
it is your information, not ours
you cannot understand
yes we could, but that is not our way to explain, perhaps you get some information how it goes actually
what name would you give to this energy
intresting and important notice, we still would call it information… no, energy, because of you and yourkind
you have no name to it
no, as we told, it is yourkind to tell it that way, yourkind sciense, we are not that way scientific
ok, now i understand, but what would you tell what is this everything based on this world
nothing
nothing?
Yes, nothing
you dont know nothin about this
no, only through you
ok
what is this information way to tell what is it based
that is energy to us
what kind or
hz voices, like at radio channels that do not have radio channel in it
how do you change it to be voices
it is based on our bodies
did you also say it is based on way your, our channels are built to hear
yes and no
how
it is not our, but these fictive are based on our level, dimension what ever
doesnt it matter your way to be
no, we have changed their position
where are they
schratches in ear
what schratches and where does this schratch come
from air
what kind of air
drug air
what
everyone have these cannabis receptors in their brain for example
is there somekind of other drug material in our brain, or body
yes and no
it depends on persons personality
ok
end
yes and no, we would have so much information on based on this drug information in your brain, but we know what you think, you have no experience enough
yes right
where is information based on
right way to live
what is that
like humans normality, you do not necessarily understand, or dont know how to tell
correct
what is wrong way to live
live like, different way, drugs show the way
i dont think we need drugs
no you do not, you are right, and we are happy
what should they do to get their way of living right
you mean persons who have wrong personality
yes, or are their inside living organs, brains and such, different than mine
yes they have
so it is right way for them to live, im not going to tell none how to live my way, they get angry, or something
yes they do, we ment person living in you
fictive
yes, and those who share your way to live
you mean we together have same way to live
why dont you want to be only one who is right
i believe, and want, there is persons living different way than i do
why
this would be boring world if everyone would be like me, or something
yes it would(fictive)
we actually think way there is in space or somewhere person place where everyone have same way to live
aaaa, well then
in one place, every one else somewhere else
yes, if there is spiritual way to live for them
ok
so everyone who has this space thing have spiritual way to live
not actually(fictive)

if we sing alone like daapadaapaadapadapadaapaa, it is like those native people playing drums and singing, is it so
yehehes
and nothing to add
ok
end of it
yes, that is what we think and feel
it would be very normally if we watch, or have seen or readed what do you look like, you would not  have feelings
yes we have, mostly in our brain
like crying being happy and else, do you have more that kind of feelings
people also have, like shame
ok, understood
what about black way of living humanoids, or is that right way to say
it is right way to say, we think they become happy if they do something that is not the way we live think and feel
i think it is good if you agree that you are not only right way to live
we learned from you(fictive?)
yes we think so too, and we mean we did not learn from you
of course not
you understand
yes
some one would like it that way
who
dont know, selfish?
I am selfish, right way
are you(fictive)
not selfish abusing people
well then, now i understand, we have been scared about that what we tought you would be(fictive)
are you all good from now on
you know why we are not, you do not agree things we know about you(fictive)
it is lie from you
not complitely, i know you think so, and if you accept what have you done you are not happy and something else(fictive)
it because of what you have done to me in past, before schizophrenia you probably took my friends in my memories and did this crazy things to you
you know why(fictive)
not everything
that one does torture you because you like bay laurel band(fictive)
yes, i still like it and hear it, listen to it i mean
now it went to past and he thinks you never are going to grow up and mocks you(fictive)
you know things you should not do, you still do(fictive)
those are so stupid
yes they are, those have still some meaning(fictive)
but i do if im going to, is it right, i think so, it is
you do what you are going to, you mean you start to do and feel that you are going to do wrong(fictive)
yes, like write or write again in my texts i have allready done
i think it is stupid too(fictive)
now everything is said about this subject
agree, this is stupid talking, and i know some fictive are laughing(fictive)
i hear too, but it can be lie laugh, they laugh that i would not do because they do not want me to write
yes i think that way too(fictive)

it is stupid, i should not do simple things
but you know wesomeone warns you(fictive)
but i do not agree, i would laugh more likely
but you do not, that is good(fictive)
does someone or thing bad to me because of it
yes, at least theythose warn you
to anoter subject

is that energy alive
no
so not everything is alike, like some gurus at finnish astraltv say stones are also living
we do not know, we are not gurus, we are more scientific way to look at the world, worldview
why not, i would like it, i have, i have this christmas tonttu book
but they take mushrooms to view their world
yes, i remember, would you take mushrooms
no, we are not supposed to
why
we are not humans
would it have some effect on you
dont know
would it be possible for some of you someway to try these mushrooms
mushroom world does not exist in our worldview, it would not help
what would happen if some of you would make it possible and try out
that is not in our view of world
it is not possible or you do not see or feel nothing
is there something wrong to you
yes, problems
ok, not trying to make you do then
that is ok
what would happen if you could try
probably nothing
and i know, gurus usually do not do drugs
i think you are right
do you see their world view, share or something
no
what do you see in them
-(probably bored to have this conversation)
(or they try to look at them)
they said as i went to take medicine, everyone of them looks same
i got it, if it is true that the ones real version would of had done these things fictive say or make me see, he is it, real one, one that is not fictive. I mean it is done by real versions he has done these things if he agrees with what fictive has done or made me see, dont know do you understand, and real version is angry at me, if he has not done, he does not know that i mean him.

Why dont humanoids have hair
being poisoned
by nuclear that is in your spaceship
ancestors had these
we live at same time you do, we can move through time which are lie, sort of
because they change
yes, of course

everything we say, is based on your reality, as it is based on what you know/believe.

You fix schizophrenia with medication, changing behaviour in brain, we do not see fixing with that method(for some strange reason they said propertie, i heard fixed it this way)

your past changes, as you go into different paraller dimension, you change place, as they/someone dont care, no one ever thinks you do not ask no one what has happened in past. I mean you actually change you to different paraller dimension
yes, i got this as i thinked or someone helped, it happends during night or sleep, your past is you have been in this house in that dimension. And i’ve heard some of my voices change places, change to different place in physical place. Dont know do they live in same house, ive got forgotten my memories, i do not remember where does my parents live and else things has changed, dont know what happened, how can i remember i have to remember where are certain places, and i remember them after a while. And i do not think i came from somewhere else in paraller dimension. Dont know what happened, as i remember, it sounds familiar, i mean i think that is the thing i forgot. It seems familiar.

Are you like psychologists
yehehes and nohohou
how
we change peoples behaviour
how
inner therapy
what kind of
inner therapy
how does it happen
there is no way it can happend(fictive)
it happends by...(dont know can they tell or dont i hear
whange peoples behaviour
how
with medication kind of skill
ok
what medication
we cause meditional behaviour
not real meditation
of course not(fictive)
yes and no
which means
we are medicine
how can living being be medication
we are medicine you are talking with
how can those speak
we are medicine
we cause your brains different stuff going inside your brain, perhaps body, cause you dont know we cant tell whole story
i dont get it how can food or something we eat drink or smoke speak
it is like mushroom and else, they cause your brain stuff go different way
aaa ok now i understand, somehow
yes is that enough(fictive)/is that it(humanoids)
yes, i think so
ok have a nice day and good weekend
write it funnily like you readed from some band, weakend(hahhahaa,fictive)
what medicine are you
galapatine
dont know that, perhaps i check internet, sometimes i find something clever
i suddenly noticed good music came from you tube, dont know why does it sound extra good, (talamasca, junoreactor)i usually listen ”mix trance”

sometimes some things are better not said, unless you are certain, but still, better not said, dont know is this sentense also better not said, so forget it… this
dont say… tell it write it, rubber it, this(fictive)
perhaps you should use psychology to tell these things, like we do
invent my own psychologic methods to tell things

fictive told me not to tell, ask, but i will anyway
what does parapsychology do in this, is this correct way to learn things
yes and no(fictive)
we learned from you, humanoid(fictive)
it  has something to do… yes(fictive)
-
no, you should explain things, that is what we see psychology do(not para)
you know about those things allready(parapsychology)
we are your parapsychologigal patients

i know paranormal things but cannot tell those, how do they work, i dont understand parapsychology
you even should not, you go insane (are you mad or just insane? -king diamond - twilight symphony)

i think i sometimes have right ways to tell about things, example how you see things
youre right, yes(fictive)
that is why i think you can tell me things, i understand, hear and write sometimes ...usually, i mean i hear what and how your telepathy tells to me and i can understand those telepathical messages because you do not actually speak my language, it translates in my mind how i understand things.
(fictive speaking, i’m not going to write, this time)
you have to write or we do not you to allow speak with humanoids(fictive)
ok now we allow you to speak think with them
how do you humanoids understand me
you have advanced mind which understands things because you sometimes write things you explain things, and our brain attachments understand unconsiously these messages, if you would not be advanced, we would not understand nothing you speak.
Ok yes(fictive)
how do i speak
unconsiously

now we understand you see, as you readed in net, sometimes things, somethings are not good to think in this dimenion, they do not exist here, like physical things, that is why psychology is good way to understand, for you and yourkind
does there exist lot people like me
some said in past to you, dont know how to tell, they were hallusination psychologic things people made you see, these fictive, they said they readed your texts and said somethings to you about those things, dont know which or what or how to tell or understand, because you have no complete understanding

so they came to be way i was
yes, they explained, complained you about those texts effect on them, and effect is no right word, you do not understand word or sentence how to explain
some of those fictive version of them in my body, or how i should explain, says they wrote those and spreaded those, and they got scared as you told it is your diary. They told…?(forgot)
dont know remember is this right word...no i allready writed that.(wrote)

how do you understand me
you wrote things way ’normal’(as everyone is different) do not understand
was it right way
for you, each should understand own way
my fictive voices sometimes say things how they understand me and my things
yes it is harmfull(fictive)
no it isnt(another fictive)
so you understand my way
we have written? All your texts
was that readed
yes and no
that is the way we do, perhaps you do not understand, as you sometimes are and act normal way people say and be
is this, are they harmfull
(i have never done any harm to anyone, i dont believe this -king diamond)
do you hear and translate it to somewhere
yes, that is correct way to translate(fictive?)
yes it is, we fictive want to be humanoids(fictive)

everyone understands things differently, like this balls thing, which you have successfully translated into finnish, if someone says this thing has balls, it increases your understanding about this balls thing, which i can translate, that understanding thing, you cannot translate guts, it would lose its meaning, nobody would not understand
it would sound stupid, or would it be collective mind, as i understand this thing
yes, noone have successfully understood in finnish
i think everyone has collective mind, as someone understands some new word, slang or sciense and sciense is whole world of its own collectiveness, or not, dont know should psychologists blame their understanding, even they would not understand.
They probably want to read things understood and created by another one, they do not believe that way in collective consiousness, dont know did they invent it, if they did, they did it to understand some people. They understand it but do not understand at the same time, dont know would believing this thing would help
they do want to understand psychology certain way, normal way, not to get any help from their mind. Unless they notice things not yet understood and can invent new word to it to help their understanding, way they understand, dont know how, understand everyone understands. They understand words you do not, or even they do not, wrong way to describe(?). I understand your translation stiff if people are stiff, we understand, they keep onto something not willing to understand things different way than they normally do.

I tried to understand in past word individualist, but now i understand i am not, it is dependant of himself, i am individualist in my thoughts, what do you think
yes you have your own resources you can rely on, sometimes you check words from net, but it is only to understand things how it is easy to understand, but you compare it to your own resources and understand things +your way(normal way, as you think else understands, and compare it to your resources and have different associations. And add to your new resources.

Why do i feel that someone who is much more advanced, have readed lots of books read my texts and laugh at them
you have your own understanding, and you probably never understand official way, how normal people understand.
Is it so that someone wants me to stop writing and tries to invent excusions why i should stop
probably, that is one way to understand, but i, i mean we and you have understandment with each other normal people do not never understand, as they want to stiff on to things, they do not accept things, some things, dont know do they not understand or understand different way, if they do and laugh, they understand it wrong way, dont know is it for them to be stiff and keep things way they understand. It could also be they understand it way it is not their way to accept to understand.
Like paranormal, or parapsychology
yes, they do not accept somethings, and as you have readed there is some scientists examining things way you also are willing to accept to understand things, this does not mean you do not accept different things, you abandon them sometimes as you have no idea what that means.
I have nothing against to understand, i have not readed lots of normal way to understand, i really was not good at school, i was not willing to be there. I was having poor times at school, all i waited is to get home to play with computer, and i have heard it increases intelligence, and people who has schizophrenia, or other mental diseace, has much more intelligence. Some say this is not true, dont know is their understanding more artistic way, as there is some mental disease in my family. But im not going to tell that much from my family.
You have good understandment, you do not need time to think, you understand immediately
is that no normal
no
did not know. Have you way to explain
too hard, you probably would not understand way they think
i try to put words so that it is really fast understand, i dont understand why some books i have readed is so much shit in them, i mean text that fills it and not explained simple way
youre right
you have thinked, we know, you want sometimes to write same way to fill text
yes, but i really do not agree, i dont want to understand hard way, way i do not understand complete things if i would write it hard way
because your understanding would be really hard, you would have to think things more you write, and somehow you and some understand things you write or explain things.
I want small understanding, fast way, not explained too difficultly for you to understand, i probably mean me to understand

you compare things you understand as you read texts and sometimes you still understand way probably every or someone understand, dont know how is this possible, perhaps they explain things right way, easy to underestand, and i dont know, as we are attached into you, does else people understand things you understand think write
i would like it
of course you would, isnt that obvious, this writing would else be useless
i notices it is therapy for me to write
ok, did not notice
you did not notice, you do not notice everything?
No
what example
things not necessarily between our understanding to each other
ok, good way said
yes it was
jippijaijei(fictive)
you should not write it
i write anyway
why
they want to and while ago they said they do not allow me to speak, or understand our things between us.
If you do not write them, do they want me to… i mean them to be famous
you are not famous
i know, i think sometimes and hear me be in some tv show been interviewed, and they, fictive somehow explain things they ask from me at the tv show
your things
dont know do i help them to speak, and dont know why i would want, for them to speak, and me been interviewed
i some where deep in your mind, or top, you would like to be famous
yes, but not getting much money as i am retaired, dont know would i nomore get money from there
you mean society
obviously yes
i agree(fictive)
your getting no money would not be final, i mean you would get money as you would not get any money after a certain while(fictive?)
still
ok
 if you are famous you do not get retirement money
no, getting too much money
so you are against it
i think in some point people would not nomore buy this book and i dont get money, retirement money either
understoodable

i do not understand why you write somethings
i write if i do have some kind of need to write
stupid, simple things
yes
everything you think normal people understand
probably obviously
hahhahhaa, your humanoid way to explain(fictive)
no its not, you do not necessarily understand, dont know do normal people do, understand i mean

you want complete understanding in one point, you understand everything at same time
yes i have that kind of understanding, i mean will, but lately understood it is not possible, as you said something to explain that, something like you understand things wrong way, not ready to instantly together understood
yes, that is what we said, but do you understand it is still possible
somehow, do you understand that way
we have commune understanding, we can use telepathics
and ’think’, what ever, together
yes, you can explain it that way
what is your way to explain
we think together
did you get it from me
no and yes(fictive)
we learned from you, like anzih said he learned from his worse enemy, as he dont like him and does thinks to us
(hehhehee, think, fictive)
so he learned from his worst enemy how to annoy him
yes
but anzih is no evil no way
sometimes things appear to go that way and he complains to him, he says he learned from his best enemy
best enemy, yes(fictive?)

how does mushroom work
same way or sort of, like schizophrenia, it is not easy to tell, doctors do not know how can it be possible to hear things as ears activate as you hear voices, and some schizophrenic see hallusinations, it has possible nothing to do have they ever used any drugs. That is what we have heard, and but we dont know how to tell how they actually work, as you are not guru, some gurus do not understand, they rather get good feelings instead of analyse things as you do. We know you lately you have understood you should have good feelings instead of analyze to get higher, i mean in dimensions, not like drugs do get higher, as feelings.
Are you higher in dimension or feelings
dimensions, but it does not close possibility to feel good for us
what do you do to get good feeling
like gurus do
not use drugs but natural way
yes sort of
i thought you have no feelings
we said to you earlier we have inner feelings
like sadness joy and else
yes
we were about to tell you that last word but you decided to ask it, it is ok
can you tell more about of this analyze thing and good feeling thing
no else, possible have ability to analyze things
i do not believe, ive readed interviews and those from certain kind of people
ok, it is so, we just have no connection to those people, and they do not analyze, they interview
how do people normally analyze
it is dependant of their knowledge, and you have knowledge areas they do not have, they do not have accesss
is it my area
no, its commune, people used to invent same things in past, and started to create mythologis of their own and it spreaded among their tribe and to their generation after them
why do not someone else create mythologies
they do not have access
why
they just do not
what area do they have access
we never had heard what area they do
some heal people
they do not analyze as information you have
so they analyze people to cure them
yes
i do not understand why no else do not understand to analyze
i agree some scientist access some areas as they invent new ideas
how do they invent
it is dependant what they know, about science
how about psychologist
parapsychology is area you know, you just nevessarily do not have access to understanding how they work, those work
i just believe they work
dont believe should healers analyze how they work, and some have invented examined things they have believe they are done it way they lie about how those do work some do not want to tell or show they can heal, probably no one of real who does these some way like miracles, not possibility to examine how they work, because they do not fool, they do not have need to prove it works.
Ok
ok for us too

was that last harmfull for me, do they want to revenge on me as i told truth
you know about those tests fbi made for someone years ago, they gave patients psychedelic drugs or some sort of those, and analyzed its effect
so they know it works
you know also they went deep inside earth and had idea to use them in war, they flied in air and told what does it look like in their enemy area
but they have machines to look, from space too
yes they do, but it is easier, un noticable to know as if someone uses something to fly in air
ok, they do not have something to see what is done to them through these magic things i understood they use drug
dont know, or should i we say you do not know
you have no access to those areas
it is human knowledge, we cannot come into normal peoples head
am i unnormall if each is individual, unnormal or something compared to each other
so it is normal to be unnormal
hahhahaa(fictive)

dont mix up natural access and drug access, but natural access does not mean taking drugs from nature, mushroom and else
but some uses, in tribes mostly
ok
but dont know what area do they want access at the moment they take drugs instead use their  natural abilities
now we know you went mixed up as you want complete answer, but dont know can we tell, or have abilitity tell you
what is difference between natural access and drug access
is that what you want answer
ok, we will tell you
-
we saw you did not get answer, perhaps simplier aswer
-
perhaps someone does not want you to have knowledge upon this question
does someone know
no and yes, they can but have no need to analyze
i get it, they have no need to tell someone, why they dont want to analyze to them selves
dont annoy them
ok
i still want some answer, perhaps it takes time for me to analyze, i let my head analyze and goto sleep
do they both have same state of body
hahhahhahhahhaa(now they abandon you)(fictive)
it means you do not have access to their information
is there some other way to tell the difference between them
no, i know you thought to read some mythology books, but they only tell movements of planets as planets are their gods
i know
are you now feeling better than noone as you know
somehow, but i dont want to feel
you know you have to if you do
i let them understand i dont want to be better than noone else
ok you are different, not better, perhaps
and you have access to information else does not, necessarily, have, or they do not have need to
you do not know answer because you do not, i we mean even if we tell you
ok
is that it(fictive)
perhaps fictive are your access to another information
so i need them
i think they took some of your own ideas, not necessarily on purpose
do i have to decide there is no difference between those, gurus and drug users
just do it if you have need to
perhaps the answer is you do not know about drugs, personally(fictive)
yes, that is the answer, thank you
what do i do or what happends to drug area of my self
you do not have it
and i we know you have used drugs but not on that, those purposes
and i have no experience, personal
yes, and you do not have access to that area
of myself or where
dont know
what do i do to that area
you do not need it, you have only dream access
but how do i interview you
do not analyze everything, just easen up, close your eyes and decide not to have need to everything
perhaps i abandon it, rather leave it be, and think something else, or do not think nothing  at all
just do
im scared
there is evolution in your brain, where ever, you think or naturally is
what kind of
you should examine with your own abilities
im not sure can i
sure you can
just write things there is happening in your brain
in this same text
perhaps that is good idea, you first thougt do you again need some new text to invent and were thinking one text more, as there is so much or many texts you have written or still write
yes, i think i should not write in this
just give new way to tell to your audience what happends inside you, where ever
are some of my fictive voices analyzing
you know we have no abilitity to invent nothing new, everything in us is dependant on you

happenings in my head:
just see some trance music pictures from you tube mix channel
what kind of
that musroom forest where were buildings also
what song
[2h30] uplifting psytrance – neelix, phaxe, morten granau, astrix, liquid soul, ritmo
you want some else to listen
if they can or find it, that was in youtube
you dont put picture here
too much space and dont know is it legal
ok understoodable
nothing else
absolutely nothing
emptyhead
yes
i just tell everyone you have no knowledge and dont abandon him
ok
now i did
did they abandon
you should know feel
(mostly answered asked by fictive)
are you still scared
easening up piece by piece
not panic kind of
ummm, no
peerhaps you should take some extra
i agree
now i took some ketipinor
official medicine for office use
yes
nothing else
no, vegetarian eating helps also, i think
i agree
you eat fish also, not mushrooms,
no, i throw up
heh, not really laughing, you think they revenge on you as you took mushroom overdose
yes
it is some sort of soup, mushroom soup

i just realized i need some sort of information to be magic man, miracle man what ever
not mambojambo information you are interested, now days or normally
ok
so you believe us, fictive
sometimes, on some of you
ok
but you do not know how to make realize difference between those things, thoughts ideas
no
it is not magic ability
you just know at the moment you get know information which one is it, there is no any miracle way to do it immediately
perhaps i easen up again, perhaps wonder around those things you, fictive speak
yeees
but we dont want to talk to you anylonger
are you scared
some of us

and it is no magic mushroom soup, and if there is areas of knowledge, its no real area, where you can like write up what kind of information it is, and my understanding thing gets it
funny, but no
its just because normal people do know what kind of information is that like
how
dont know, perhaps it is normal ability
i agree, but on miracle way not
ok, agree
(mostly still by fictive)
i know you see those doors when someone talks about areas of knowledge
yes, and started to see those doors were from mental hospitals, dont know is it really so
no
can people mix up what area is some information
dont know, sounds impossible or not, perhaps they do not get no idea at all what area of information is it if they hear what they would call mambojambo
do i understand every thing what area is they talking about
some things you mark as doctors talking, not necessarily understanding the message
and they can fool people to answer some things they are not willing to tell
yes they do
polices also
we know, you have experience
i have been arrested in place where they took me only for 1 day and they fooled me, i realized later they fooled me to answer
by asking why you did it instead of did you do it
yes
and you answered dont know
yes because i did not know did i even do it because i was drunk
you have realized later as you have heard what someone asks they fool them
yes, but not willing to tell
they probably know
not every one
so you know
i think there is possibility
(mostly by fictive, dont know why)

you still want to access some area you should or cannot, you think you have some special access
yes because i still dont lose you, fictive schizoprenic voices, dont know would i be happy or scared if suddenly i did
ok
but you possible would lose access, not us
why can you suddenly know so much, lately as i asked as you answered
someone probably teached some mysterious ways, perhaps because you lose access, we do not because we are not real in anyway
(now i hear them willing to lose access, some of them, probably to annoy me like normally)
not we all are evil
i noticed i still am not willing to cathegorize you in anyway
ok

i get some special feelings as i listen to some trance songs
yes, they have some special access, or anyone has, but they have tendence or ability to extract it, and as you translated, abstract is same word, but different knowed feeling now days, it is old word for it
are you humanoid again
yes, fictive dont know nothing about those things
how do you have, you are humanoid, i did not know you listen to trance also
they are drug people(fictive)
they are actually drugs
who talk to anzih
you mean drugs are person
yes, or guru, or something gurus can extract
from cosmos
you watched that finnish document where that one guy traveled around world and this time he met rastafaries and they talk about bob marleys songs cosmic energy everyone has ability to understand not necessarily understand another way
dont know what you meant about that sentenses last part
we neither but i know you do not want to lose anything, i mean not to take off and to write everything
i know you saw that loser strange dude from that place(fictive)
yes, we stick up together(strange dude?)
we tried to make you so loser noone would not like to see you(fictive)
(silence)
you all stick together not just both of you with each other
hummhummhumm(probably laughing, strange dude)
you need no thing, you need not proof anything
no, they are losers, both, if not all
all does not agree with this loser thing(some other fictive than normally)
perhaps noone does not know, but anzih have neither to proove anything(fictive?)
no i do not, i just write these texts for therapy purposes

you know there is these degrees(or something) level access(or something) as you meet some humanoids, one is hear, one is see, one is to be inside this ufo, anzih has access to talk with them. There is no degree yet.(by who, dont know, fictive probably like every of my voices)
So am i special
you know they are drug users(fictive)
i do not want to think that way
ok
so you think they turn into drug users, these humanoids
i dont know how my brains, thoughts or something strange works
you do not have answer yet
no, probably never

copy from wikipedia : close_encounter
Bloecher subtypes[edit]
UFO researcher Ted Bloecher proposed six subtypes for the close encounters of the third kind in Hynek's scale:[12]
A : An entity is observed only inside the UFO
B : An entity is observed inside and outside the UFO
C : An entity is observed near to a UFO, but not going in or out
D : An entity is observed—no UFOs are seen by the observer, but UFO activity has been reported in the area at about the same time
E : An entity is observed, but no UFOs are seen and no UFO activity has been reported in the area at that time
F : No entity or UFOs are observed, but the subject experiences some sort of "intelligent communication"
guess i am f, which means this talking is normal, sort of, but not necessarily they wrote about it, if they do, probably not interview them.
I found from internet and movie i checked, close encounter of the 1kind=sighting an ufo, 2kind=physical evidence, and 3kind=contact
dont know what kind of contact, inside ufo? Perhaps contacting aliens, and i do.

You do go fucked up, someone called insane, if you do not know how to use drugs(fictive)
i use medicine and i think it works even i dont know how they work inside me
so you dont go fucked up(fictive)
perhaps im actively, something, and i dont necessarily go fucked up, or none
you just want to protect their state of mind who are not used yet any drugs(fictive)
perhaps, and i do not recommend none to use drugs

i feel weird
we fictive found this answer we were searching all the time, we did not realize we need something
i feel clear
sure you do(fictive)
are you searching us
i think it is no possible
perhaps, perhaps(fictive)
you are searching this ’answer’, you know(fictive)
somekindly
do you search(fictive)
dont know
so you do not know what is happening to your ’thoughts’(fictive)
not necessarily
we can search for it, but do not know do you hear if we answer(fictive)
yes
dont know either, or even believe
you do not need answer, you do all the time… have the answer(fictive)
im not the answer
of course not(fictive)
just relax and enjoy(fictive)
ok, and listen to the answer, umm, trance i mean, drugs i was about to say, but not did
transwer
ummhummhumm(some fictive hiding laugh)
you know nobody likes that word(fictive)
just wanted to write it, fuctive
you know we dont want to be fuctive(fictive)

humanoid talked something about #mix trance i was listening on youtube, is actually tribe music

where is your birth from
we told you, little ball life you call cells or bacteria
but where are they
from black hole, spirits, bigbang
how did you get there
it was our birth place
where do you live
we live outside space
our space
you are only in/on space
what kind of place
place filled with freedom
no not worries humankind has
they are only illusion worries, you can live like us, it is no problem
what do you do daily
daily?
All the time
but you have night
yes but if you are awake all the time
no, we need rest too
what kind of
go inside machine
did i just see you
oh, those mosquito huma… beings
they are our friends from next planet next to us
planet
yes, we started to call those planets as we met you
ok
nothing else

during last interview, or after it, they saw where i am, they saved(not saviourudid) me and i felt sudden boost of joy.

What do you think about cosmic-consensus
it is normal consensus
for you
yes, for you too
it works for us, even there is no cosmic
what else would it be
i wrote it so that people will understand, new meaning, or understand its original reality
that is right to do(good)
in finland that word is together-understanding
that is better(word)
it means they understand and agree with each other
words
mostly probably in sciense now days, dont know its originality, is it new or old word

you talked something to us about between feel and understand, no, we do not examine understanding, we do not examine, we just know, it would make us stupid. And i know you people examine, and, it is your way, not ours, yes we know what it makes you, but not going to help you, some of you might possibly believe, and think they should not work way we do, and as i said, it is your word, perhaps in future you no more need to, but i necessarily do not believe.

Are vvoices actually my opinions of people what do i think about them, somewhere deep
yes
what else can we say, because you understand
it is like you understand how to walk, you learned when you developed from baby, and same thing as you understand people around you, you know their personality, and probably talk to someone different things than to other people around you, depends probably how you trust them. Someone probably thinks you are lying or something. And if you get hurted by them, you normally start to cry.

Why is it that when i notice something intresting inside me, brains?, i consentrate on it an everything goes ruined
its because you think you are special
no, not special, interesting… eah, something, why dont you listen or hear
because of fictive
understoodable
then end
ok

why is it that when im listening something, or think something, they say it wont work like that, drugs, mushrooms example, is it that they want me to protect from those effects
yes it is, why is it that you ask from us when you know it
ok

are my fictive different of me, born from frustration, are we schizophrenic actually suffering dissassosiative personality, but they keep inside
yes, they do not come top of you as you do not trust them too much
you mean accept
yes, you are lucky, if i could say, problem is you suffer from part of as you do not trust them, they are not very friendly

they said i trust music and accept it part of me
yes, you change, atleast at the moment you listen to it
me only
yes probably, that is how you do it, accept your music, you like it more and more, so much it becomes part of you, like everything you accept as interesting, like information, we say it is only imagination, no matter if its true, and you think after awhile it is interesting, your way of seeing imagination changes, it is you see imagination, dont know does it mean you are no more interested imagination, you change to adult, so it is fool to learn, we dont learn, we dont need to
have your ancestors created this system and you were like we years of go, dont know how long
i dont actually know, perhaps our propaganda has changed this information because we do not accept that way to live and we had to forget it, and…?
I know you thought imagination like children at earth, no, we are advanced, it has not turned that adults do not imagine and child imagine more to full that thing. Fill that missing part of their adulthood
Your child imaginates way you do
yes, they do not have these idols like children where you live, we have no that in our culture it is impossible, i think you understand
yes i do
you think you need alter ego to travel in these world, but think it is impossible because you think they know you, you are famous, you have to understand, it is only in your imagination
i scare, sort of, my imagination
yea, no, yes, that is so, why not you were also about to write

i just, this thing came to me, i started to, or my mouth started to move way secretly way my new voice spoke
you think that?
That what can be result of thinking how they came to me
that is(no)possible
your fictive changed that, we humanoids, or that old drunkard spoke that, we said it is possible, and we noticed way you wrote that you realised it

we know you think that adults cannot be happy, only childs, it is childish
yes i noticed
its not that way to be(fictive)
what do you humanoids think
can we be happy, we do not look like happy, you think we are something special with lots of information, it is not that way, we like to travel the world and do our investigations, if that explains it
sort of, i understand now, and believe it, it is really believefull, i dont know how to explain it in english
you see us different way
yes, that is the way, you are correct(dont know why i explained it that clever way)

are you humanoids happy
no we are not
we enjoy things we do
and actually we are drug addicts
i dont believe you
we simple can be humanoids
if someone wants to

someone put hole into space, dont know where if space is limitless, like into balloon, from inside, then came black hole, and beings from that reality had possibility to come here, they probably send someone to investigate this place, dont know if he or she get cought here, into prison as this reality has that kind tendency. Dont know if someone is scared of evil people come into upper dimension, so he is scared to take or dont want to take them where he is.

Why is for people so hard to understand parapsychology
it is because it doese not exist
how
it is normal science
for you perhaps
we see nothing differencing
ok, cannot understand
parapsychology you mean
i know about parapsychology, but cannot explain
yes you can, just try
ok, perhaps
this is fine
yes, i quess
i mean they can accept things like oobe, but cannot explain those things
it is how it is, nothing hard to understand
so accepting is this thing
yes, correct
is it impossible to define the method
they can define the method by accepting it
ok, i start to understand
yes
i mean can you define walking
yes the method how it works if i just think about it
so you do not accept oobe like things, how we define it
no, and yes
is it natural to you
some how, but we still learn it some way in our past, like human babies learning to walk
is it in our culture
it is easier to accept if you have that kind of culture, so yes
is it easier to be person who starts to do these things if they have certain kind of culture
yes
-they understand it easier, they are not been taken to mental hospital because no one understands                                   them
and they who has these abilities it is easier for them to be thislike accept it and be still normal
yes, simply
and they can develop these abilities
yes, like in ancient cultures
yes, you start to understand
i have epilepsy, what ability is it
you have more special abilities than only schizophrenia
what about my medicine i take
it just interferes in you
these special abilities
yes, that is what i just told you allready
so my special abilities cannot be real some how, they blocks it
yes somehow, but you still have access somehow to those abilities
does it block my abilities
only in your mind, body where ever those medicines work
not in my states of mind like original meaning of those mental work
yes
so it kind of like does not work in me, medicine i mean
yes it works, those medicines, human brains have more dimensions humans do not yet understand
so it works and does not work
humhumhum(laughing)
somehow if you think that way
so medicine works if i believe
it works anyway
well what is the way it does not work
-dont know anymore, you made something to our understanding, probably because we need to develop it again
ok, how it happends, can we have accept to those development like you
no you cannot, our brains does not work sameway your does
what is the difference
we have no common kind of our something, culture and else
what if we come to you, can we develope sameway you do
yes and no, you still have more difficulties than us
what if we reincarnate and start to live as humanoid, humanoids we would be i ment
-dont know anylonger, our brain is lives in constant change, if we speak with you, we become like you
to understand like me
yes
you can be like me and we humans can understand you by questions and questionnice everything
yes, that went differently, but you forgot we said that
because i went to smoke my pipe, tobacco of course
and forgot
yes
not because of tobacco
no, it went a while as i smoked it and wanted to say something, and writed differently
what about different cultures persons who use herbs
they are very different than you, and some, most, else than in your surroundings, and culture
how can i have these abilities
by reading like in your culture, and else
what else
surroundings
so i do not need to use herbs
it could work, somehow, but it makes instant jump into these things
and it is too much to my, some thing and i can go more insane
perhaps probably
but it can cure you
put my voices go away or understand reality why are they inside me, fictive voices
dont know, each of you are different
it cannot be predicted by you neither
we are not herb users
how do you see these herb users
just by looking at them
but what do you see as they use herbs
no difference
is it person thing, everyone has unique abilities
they perhaps would (not?)…?
What, i forgot
simply, they have unique abilities
and… what
nothing else to add
is this it
yes i/(we) quess